The Day

So tomorrow is the big day, this is it, it all comes down to this, and nothing gets bigger than this. Yea yea all words taken from that ESPN, Star Sports team :P. its nothing like that trust me. Will just go there have fun and come back, but there is one thing quite important and that is at the end of the day I want to retain my reputation as a good cricketer and not someone who was responsible for a defeat (selfish??). In the past have been a weak link most of the times, lets I hope I can change it this time. As far as event is concerned arrangements have gone so far so good. Colored shirts are here. Yea I will be wearing an orange-colored T-shirt and I look like a beeeeeeeg Jet spot :P. Banners have been printed, movie cameras have been arranged as well as umpires and yea not to mention foood :D. So it should be fun inshAllah and I hope everything goes smooth. Will write about what happened inshAllah. Do pray ;).

TapeBall Tourney

There is a pleasant change in office environment these days and it is all because of upcoming Tape ball Cricket Tournament which will be played under lights among teams of seven different departments. This tourney has become the main topic of discussion among all of us, either you will find people discussing different strategies, coming up with practice schedules or just anxious to experience it all. Initiated by us from the Software Department we seem to be most active team, we have already scheduled four-five practice sessions, couple of matches with outsiders and have already achieved a psychological advantage on the rest of the teams ;).

I am seriously looking forward to this one and wanting to enjoy and perform well. Because I believe this is another chance for me to prove to myself that I can perform on big stage and not giveaway. Secondly sports has always been my primary love and I always wanted to succeed in it, with a far limited talent I got chances are slim but lets hope. More importantly I am hoping that the whole event is a major success, it will be good for the company and us and specially me praying and hoping that the venue be cool because it was I who suggested that place based on feedbacks and haven’t really gone and seen it yet. Pray for me :).

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Read couple of these blogs
http://coredotnet.blogspot.com/
http://msaqib.blogspot.com/
in morning and although it was wonderful to see how much work these people have and are doing in field of IT but that also created a huge feeling of disappointment in me and I felt like a big failure. I mean the amount of work I have done is simply nothing as compared to what they have achieved. It just feels that I have wasted all five years after my graduation, non non whatsoever. They write papers, conduct seminars and now Microsoft has invited them to speak in a conference which will be held in Karachi this month. Its all result of their hard work and dedication and my heartiest congratulations to them. But when I look at myself all I see is this whining and no action to go in a certain direction. I will go to office, work, come back, waste time watching TV or on net, go to sleep and start the next day all over the same way. There is nothing done anything apart from it, anything which is worth mentioning, anything which will contribute or make me stand among the most valuable ones.

I feel like a kid who gets lost in a toy shop not to sure which toy to buy, which to leave or how to spend his money. He wants most of them but he cant and in the end he ends up buying the most cheapest and most useless one and goes home. Few days back he would come back again, he would again get confused, would get depressed because the last time he wasted an opportunity, would think again which one he can get which he can’t and he wants them all. But again he would come out buying the same toy and this goes on. Similarly I go on, maybe few months later a similar post will appear and you will know what I was talking about.

If they ever make statistics of persons who have lost opportunities or given away chances or didn’t perform upto the potential I am sure I will be in a very high percentile.

GIKI

Its been a week since my return and still haven’t written anything, though it almost seemed inevitable that I had to write something tonight. The moment I was on GT Road it felt like someone has thrown me back in time but has kept it incomplete. We reached there around 9 headed straight to café and immediately couple of café staff recognized me and greeted me such an affection its hard to explain. I let ammi sit in café and went straight to my faculty building and right in front of me was the all famous notice board which we had to read every time we would enter the building, then visited my lecture rooms, staff rooms. There was this poster still placed from our time of ACM Gaming competition, the first ever in GIKI, it sure brought back some memories. Convocation started around 11 one hour late thanks to the “Chief Guest”, there I saw couple of my teachers but could not meet any. After the convocation all the new graduates gathered in lawn outside café and performed the traditional cap(whatever it is called) throwing act and I was like been there done that, I exactly knew how they felt. Thought at the time I felt sorry for those who didn’t graduate along with their batch. Its not easy to spent 4 years of life together and then not there when it really matters, felt sad.

For lunch I had specifically chosen my hostel, I knew there would be some of my hostel staff still present. And yes there were they atleast four of them and they greeted me whole heartedly and treated me like a very special guest. It was great to talk to them again and bring back memory of those days, I purposely didn’t visit my room, never wanted too, not even my corridor which was nick named “Prem Gaali” (don’t ask me why, have no idea). Ammi was helping Hammad pack, though he had no plans to come back with us, had couple of interviews in Islamabad plus some clearance work was left too. Infact he is coming tonight in an hour. Later I roamed around the whole institute, taking pictures bringing back those moments. All the time I felt as if from one corner or the other my batch mates would appear, but that never happen. Took pics of The Tuc shop, the famous clock tower ( ;) ask Saady). Although I didn’t feel really good being there, big attack of nostalgia and felt very empty there. But in the end it was good to be there and feel the atmosphere and place again. I would definitely would prefer going there with couple of friends if not my complete group, that should be more fun perhaps that time might come in 4-5 years or so.