Sad Day

Past few days were like every other past few days, normal, hectic and nothing unusual. Little I knew that there was a storm on its way somewhere out there. Wednesday night we were supposed to run some campaign, all went well and we left for home. Thursday morning upon arriving at work, I was informed some disaster has occurred and we went on investigating it. Since Database is always a critical part so most of the times root cause of errors originates from there. Anyways we investigated and it was discovered that a small calculation mistake caused a huge number of emails to be generated. Although I wasn’t the one who made it but I implemented it and I could have easily noticed the extra ordinary number of records being getting effected. Infact I noticed it but for some odd reason let it go and that caused it all. Heavy penalty(which could have been worst) has been imposed on me and a flawless period came to a crushing end.

It really hurts when you are working that hard and you make such a silly mistake whose impact can never be estimated and which causes a good loss to the company. It really shatters your own confidence and others stop trusting you. It will take some effort to restore it, but damage has already been done and am sure I will be keep listening about it from time to time from different people and there will always be this feeling inside me somewhere that I messed up real bad, its like dropping a very important catch in a cricket match which can make your team lose the cup, or missing a penalty stroke in a world cup final(oh that reminds me of Baggio, he missed one but bounced back but then again he could not make his country win and is still remembered by most with regard to that incident). It was my second mistake in 6 months, last time I escaped because we got it all reverted but not this time. Am not sure what will happen in future but one thing is quite certain I wont be comfortable working again there and there is a strong voice inside me urging me to move.