Confusions

Oh well when ones routine is broken it is tough to continue different activities which were part of that routine and blogging had become part of my routine but since I in Karachi it has been difficult to write or to read anyone of your posts.

Haha ok ok Tanzilla and Hira raised a question about how come I can have fun with relatives :P, ok ok let me go clear here. The kids are amazing :P me talking about between age of 20-25 :P and where I had fun? Ummm in playing football and then playing handball in pool for hours that was fun bus fullstop uskay baad nahee us say pehlay nahee :p but yea these kids are fun now we are going for a LAN Party of Counter Strike which is though never short of dramas but hopefully it will be fun :P.

Ummm ok I wanted to write about something else, past couple of weeks have been emotional roller coaster ride if nothing less. Why? Because my mind had lost its tracks and I started wondering a lot basically I was having issues with my marriage thingy and all this arranged stuff. It had gotten to the point that I was having second thoughts regarding it and nothing seemed right to me. Though I didn’t want to hurt anyone and never wanted to be a villain by making some decision. Hence was in huge tension and this was disturbing my parents. I did try talking to them, they did to me but nothing worked. I was sure that it is not working out and will fail like anything. I had almost lost my interest in going any forward. Such negative thoughts were tormenting me and I just wanted to be out of it. I guess it was a commitment phobia. Then my mother who was increasingly getting worried arranged my meeting with two of my uncles, we had a loooong discussion they heard all my fears and concerns. Talked to me and in the end it was concluded that I just had unnecessary fears, fears of unknown one might say. They gave me courage, they provided me confidence and now Thank God I feel light and positive.

PS: oh btw one more thing Hira's mom makes a wonderful biryani though I haven’t tasted it yet :( but I know its yummy :D.