Confusions

Oh well when ones routine is broken it is tough to continue different activities which were part of that routine and blogging had become part of my routine but since I in Karachi it has been difficult to write or to read anyone of your posts.

Haha ok ok Tanzilla and Hira raised a question about how come I can have fun with relatives :P, ok ok let me go clear here. The kids are amazing :P me talking about between age of 20-25 :P and where I had fun? Ummm in playing football and then playing handball in pool for hours that was fun bus fullstop uskay baad nahee us say pehlay nahee :p but yea these kids are fun now we are going for a LAN Party of Counter Strike which is though never short of dramas but hopefully it will be fun :P.

Ummm ok I wanted to write about something else, past couple of weeks have been emotional roller coaster ride if nothing less. Why? Because my mind had lost its tracks and I started wondering a lot basically I was having issues with my marriage thingy and all this arranged stuff. It had gotten to the point that I was having second thoughts regarding it and nothing seemed right to me. Though I didn’t want to hurt anyone and never wanted to be a villain by making some decision. Hence was in huge tension and this was disturbing my parents. I did try talking to them, they did to me but nothing worked. I was sure that it is not working out and will fail like anything. I had almost lost my interest in going any forward. Such negative thoughts were tormenting me and I just wanted to be out of it. I guess it was a commitment phobia. Then my mother who was increasingly getting worried arranged my meeting with two of my uncles, we had a loooong discussion they heard all my fears and concerns. Talked to me and in the end it was concluded that I just had unnecessary fears, fears of unknown one might say. They gave me courage, they provided me confidence and now Thank God I feel light and positive.

PS: oh btw one more thing Hira's mom makes a wonderful biryani though I haven’t tasted it yet :( but I know its yummy :D.

To FarmHouse

Okie in just couple of hours heading for a farmhouse with all the “khandaan” people ok not all one mamoon and one khala dropped out apparently night out isn’t ok for them but still there are mashAllah say loads of people and I am expecting good fun , c ya all, laters.

Back

:D finally am back , that is on two accounts one on blog world and secondly I am back in Karachi :D. Why was I missing from blog world? firstly I just didn’t feel like updating plus work load was immense and I was just busy with that and had to complete loads of stuff before my vacations.

Then last week that is from 27th till 3rd of this month my bro and cousin were here, they wanted to visit UAE since it was a good opportunity. So it was fun, we roamed around places, went to malls, watched “Super man Returns” on 3D, had barbeque buffet at an altitude of 1200 meters (which I think is the height of most of the cliffs we got in north nazimabad but it is a big thing in UAE :P ) and did shopping for folks back home. Did I tell you that I got all three of us late for the bus which was supposed to take us to Abu-Dhabi airport for our flight to Karachi , but khair we got there in time plus we had enough time to catch next bus and still reach on time for boarding :P but still as usual there was drama. And yes I cooked chicken karahi for them plus daal and it was great :D.

Since the time I am here in Karachi, all I have seen is rain, flooded roads, dug up roads and relatives and yes bad bad traffic ok ok I am sounding like those who lived all their lives abroad and when they come here they find all the faults, no I have lived here and now I know how pathetic it is :S.

Oh well situation in Lebanon is out of imagination and I wonder where is that Pakistani spirit which was seen after October 8, ok we might not need to show all of it but even 15% would do or we are just too nationalistic and do not care about others?